“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” Psalm 139:13-14
Lately here at the house we have been studying our personality types. If you’ve ever had the chance to take the Myers Briggs personality test, it’s really interesting. You take the test and it will give you four letters that represent what type of personality you have. This just tells you how you tend to operate and how you think verses other personality types. It’s pretty scary accurate. My result is ISTP. This means I’m introverted, sensing, a thinker, and preserving. I’m the only thinker in the entire house and out of my four girl team I’m the only sensor and thinker. This really explains a lot. Over my time here in Cambodia I’ve been really struggling with battles and lies about myself. I’ve been feeling really out of place and stretched. I think this has a lot to do with the differences in personalities. Because I’m the only thinker in the house I’ve had to really compromise and operate differently than I would like. The other girls are feelers. They love to talk about their feelings, share what’s on their minds, and talk about how things affect them. ALL THE TIME. I’m not like that. I like to think. I process inwardly. If something is bothering me, I need to take time and think about it. I need to process it. Because no one else operates this way, they don’t understand that need. So instead of being able to process I’m pretty forced (not intentionally, they just care) to share immediately. Even doing this, sharing on the internet how I feel, is torture to me.
Needless to say this has made me squirm a bit. I want to fight it. I like being more reserved. From all of this I’ve faced a lot of lies from the enemy that there’s something wrong with me. This is when the Lord reminds me that He made me this way. He placed me in this team to help me grow and to show them a new perspective. He made each of us individually and He uses us for His own purpose. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. It’s okay to be different. It’s okay to operate differently.